"But Just So You Know"

It's not an excuse but shit happens
Can't tell you to your face, so I'm stuck rappin'
But just so you know I've loved you from the start
When I first held you in my arms, from the first beat of your heart
The memory of your voice constantly replays through my head
As tears of despair stream down my face
And my purest ounce of happiness starts to erase
Beating myself for my constant mistakes
But just so you know, I need you in my life
You where the piece of me that I finally did right
Yea, I'm a fuck up, I can't deny the truth
I never wanted to leave your side, watching you ride your bike from the curbside
Making sure you don't nose dive
Slowly watching from prison eyes
As these cold bars drip down to my shirt
Emptying my insides trying to release from this pain and this hurt
But just so you know, words are worth as much as this page it's written on
I have to change my ways, cuz my life is what I'm bidding on
But just so you know, there wasn't a second I wish to forget
Of course my mind is full of dangerous regrets
Full things people have only seen in movies, I bet
But just so you know, that's no reason I'm trying to explain
I was trying to reach a life I shouldn't obtain
But just so you know, the heartbreak of losing you slowly drove me insane
As visions of you danced in my head while I sleep
Wake up full of joy only to fall to my feet
The feeling of being beaten day in and day out
Holding back the tears even if no one is around to hear me complain or shout
But just so you know, I'm not giving up
Even if I have to move mountains, I don't give a fuck
But just so you know, I always keep a picture in my wallet
Definitely love at first sight, if that's what you want to call it
But just so you know, I named you with all I had left
But just so you know, Faith I love you to death
And I'll never stop that feeling even after my last breath.