I see a path of destruction before me
Flashes of death slowly adore me As I sit quietly awaiting my demise My hands are chained no more to fly I see my options and hit them all at full speed Facing the gates I'm asked for one good deed Standing in awe, questioning my lifes choices Having a battle in my head arguing with demonic voices But for you I leave my memories and my decisions to a tee So when you're at the gates, and life's questions want answer you can't see You tell them you were a great person with a resemblence of me And I'll be there with open arms happy to witness and be glad Cuz my good deed is I was your dad. Life is complex but simple
It's a full glass of water tipped over, only to slowly trickle In bringing life, the life carries responsibilities The responsibilities bring upon trivialities And the trivialities bring upon confusion With all these conflicting cases and ideologies, people develop illusions Our mentalities can't sustain so much information Equipped with brain cells which are constantly racing We run, but our secrets and lies start chasing Like our shadows eternally dark and no real shape A reflection of ourselves but the side we really hate People try to develop a sense of innocence Trying to bring positive to their negative for a sense of sustenance But there are people who feed upon the hate and lies Looking to manipulate the way you love and despise And slowly the world cries... It's not an excuse but shit happens
Can't tell you to your face, so I'm stuck rappin' But just so you know I've loved you from the start When I first held you in my arms, from the first beat of your heart The memory of your voice constantly replays through my head As tears of despair stream down my face And my purest ounce of happiness starts to erase Beating myself for my constant mistakes But just so you know, I need you in my life You where the piece of me that I finally did right Yea, I'm a fuck up, I can't deny the truth I never wanted to leave your side, watching you ride your bike from the curbside Making sure you don't nose dive Slowly watching from prison eyes As these cold bars drip down to my shirt Emptying my insides trying to release from this pain and this hurt But just so you know, words are worth as much as this page it's written on I have to change my ways, cuz my life is what I'm bidding on But just so you know, there wasn't a second I wish to forget Of course my mind is full of dangerous regrets Full things people have only seen in movies, I bet But just so you know, that's no reason I'm trying to explain I was trying to reach a life I shouldn't obtain But just so you know, the heartbreak of losing you slowly drove me insane As visions of you danced in my head while I sleep Wake up full of joy only to fall to my feet The feeling of being beaten day in and day out Holding back the tears even if no one is around to hear me complain or shout But just so you know, I'm not giving up Even if I have to move mountains, I don't give a fuck But just so you know, I always keep a picture in my wallet Definitely love at first sight, if that's what you want to call it But just so you know, I named you with all I had left But just so you know, Faith I love you to death And I'll never stop that feeling even after my last breath. |